My "Heart Broken"

There is a big gap between the previous post with this post.. Suddenly my heart very pain.. Very suffer... I don't know why suddenly have such feelings.. I couldn't tell out to anyone.. It's really pain and really sour.. I wonder why!!! Why I'll have such feeling?? Izzit maybe I've lost my my memorable pictures and important personal files contained in my external hardisk which were certified "died" on 22nd June 2010..

When the time my lappy couldn't detect the hardisk, at first I was thought it's maybe my lappy having some problems with it.. So, continuing I formatted once and Recovery twice in spending my whole day... I was so tired and at the same time scare of losing all my datas inside.. But after a whole day trying, I still failed to detect.. So, i decided to send it to Lowyat, from where I bought it FEW MONTHS ago.. The moment they trying to detect it from different computers (my heart was beating darn fast as I hope for Miracles)... After tried to 3 computers, it still couldn't detected!!!

Haiz.. They told me, it was crashed and they couldn't do anything to recovery all my datas.. They will just send to Warranty Company and they will just exchange a new one.. My mood totally down.. My tears almost flooded on my eyes.. It's really a sad case to know that all my datas couldn't be recovered..

After a couple minutes, one technician came out and told me that I can find a specialist to help me do recovery and he reminds me that, it is very expensive.. Then I went to the shop that he mentioned to me.. I was quoting price over there.. Guess what? How much? The unexpected COST!!!!! He told me, should be around "RM1,000"!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! One Thousand!!!! Satu Ribu!!!!! Where I find so much money to pay for it???? Where? Where????? The only way for me is just to "GIVE UP" and sent it to Warranty Company and get a new ones... It's really such a bad luck for me.. I lost my secondary's school pictures, Genting Highland's working pictures, and the pictures together with "her"... I lost everything!!! All those poems~~All those videos~~~ All those documents... Gone Gone Gone!!!!! Haiz...

Maybe this is why making my heart feeling not well, and added my two classmates keep on reminds me of something which I wanted to forget... Sometimes, I really dono what should I do!!! I've seem to be lost of my directions.. I just couldn't stick to my original perceptions.. This is what I must change~~


Un-spoke-able feelings... Heart broken..
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